Wednesday, April 22, 2009

True to Life part 1

It's been a week since the liquor cabinet was calling me. I wish the liquor cabinet wouldn't call to me....Alcohol is so NOT the answer to my problems. Alcohol just seems to cover up the problem's for a little while and make's you feel a little less like the "machine" that you and your life currently has become. I don't need to cover up my problem's...I need to figure out exactly what they are and deal with them. So far I've been pretty bad at figuring out what my problem's are and dealing with them.

You ever just have "one of THOSE" days? Recently, it seems that I've been having them on a pretty regular basis when it comes to my place of employment. I'm basically sitting around waiting for my supervisors to come up with something new and exciting to get on my case about. After basically being told that I'm the problem, I have developed a little bit of an attitude towards my supervisors. I pretty much show up do my job, go home and only talk to my supervisors when they talk to me. Now I'm not in a position where I can leave my job.....The job market where I'm at is pretty dismal.....So I'm pretty much sucking it up and being a gluton for punishment.

On top of all of my work related issues, I've had a pretty crappy beginning to 2009 also. Well, pretty much from the end of November until now (so far anyway) has been pretty dismal on good things happening to me. Which if you want the highlights you can find them in this post.

Currently, I feel like I'm nothing more than a machine. There really aren't enough changes to my daily routine right now to NOT consider myself a machine. 4 days a week I go to bed between 9 and 10 in the morning, get up between 6:30 and 7 that night, get ready for work, leave between 8:20 and 8:30, show up at work around 9, work for 10 hours and go home and do it all over again. On my days off, it get's mixed up a little bit more but not much. The last couple of days it's been raining so Ms. Laci and I haven't been going out for walks, because she doesn't "do" rain or inclimate weather real well.

to be continued.....


  1. Aww Jamie I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time right now... I know you have been having these problems at work and that is the pits because what can you do when it's your supervisors... And your schedule just seems horrible!!! I will really pray that you find something other than liquor to help you..

    And yes I know how you feel. Sometimes you just can't control the circumstances around you. I can't drink luckily, so I just end up in a really pissy mood when things aren't going good...

  2. I am sorry to hear things are not going well at work. I have had jobs like that, I just dreaded going to work every day. I hope things get better for you soon!

  3. stopping in from SITS---noticed you survived the dentist. That is a feat in itself! congrats. I HATE the dentist (and my husband is about to become one). I keep wondering what I've gotten myself into!

  4. Hi!! :)

    At my previous job... I had such problems like this. I couldn't do anything right and I couldn't catch a break from my supervisors. It was a miserable time. It was HELL. Then I moved to this new job, and it was a little hard at first... until I realized that how I deal with it makes a world of a difference. I decided to stop thinking they were looking for something to blame me for... and tried to see it as them just letting me know so I can do differently next time. When I changed my thinking, life became so much better for me at work. I know the job market is dismal everywhere... so what I do is make do with the hand I've been dealt. Its not their responsibility to make me happy, I am responsible for making me happy. Supervisors suck anyway ;)

  5. I know how you feel. My name used to be the one that was always yelled out first when something went wrong. Plus I have a huge problem with some one telling me what to do. Just hang in there maybe one of your supervisors will drop dead.

  6. No wonder you're feeling like a machine, you aren't getting any sun! The sun seriously helps me, that's why I hate winter so much is because it is so depressing to me.

    Keep your chin up! Maybe a new hobby would help? A little wine and alcohol aint bad in times like these either.

  7. I am sorry things are rough right now.

    Here's hoping things can turn around.

  8. Just wanted to tell you I made your microwaved potatoes today and they were delish! I'm gonna show it on my blog and put a link to your blog in a day or two. Really, really good, kiddo. Got any more goodies you're hiding?

    The Texas Woman

  9. How funny that your dog is picky about the weather! I'm sorry about work. I hope you get a good night's sleep when you do get some.


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